Treading Water

Nowhere,

      I'm going around in circles.

A blabbering idiot.

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The 10 Most Damaging Myths about Transmen and FTMs

From True Spirit 99:

10. All FTMs come from the lesbian community, and after transition are heterosexual. (That is, attracted to women.)

9. Transsexualism/transgenderism can be "cured" by psychotherapy. Transsexual men are really just lesbians.

8. FTMs did not exist until after World War II, with the advent of hormone therapy and sex reassignment surgery.

7. Female-to-Males are far rarer than Male-to-Female transsexuals.

6. Transmen seek to live as and be recognized as male in order to obtain male privilege and economic advantages.

5. All transmen exhibit stereotypically male behavior and want to be as macho as possible.

4. Taking testosterone makes Female-to-Male transsexuals much more aggressive and angry than they were before taking hormones.

3. All FTMs want genital reconstruction as the driving force of their transition, not necessarily the social aspects that go along with masculinity.

2. Historically, all women only chose to live as men to pursue careers that were otherwise unattainable to them, to seek economic opportunities, or to justify lesbian relationships.

1. Transmen are really just butch lesbians who change sex to justify same-sex relationships or to avoid harassment.

Posted in rant

Numerology (Part II)

In adopting these new energies/vibrations, they will add to those already with me from my original birth date and names, i.e. the energies/vibrations from my original birth date/names will always stay with me. When changing one's name, it is important to honestly consider one's strengths and weaknesses - this way, it may be possible to successfully alter a name to be consistent with one's natural stengths and weaknesses and thus create more harmony in one's lives.

[ Geez, sounds flaky doesn't it. I promise, I'm not a flaky person. My name isn't Dharma and I don't live life as dictated by ideas such as feng sui and biorhythms and energies, but I do take them into consideration where it doesn't cause too much inconvenience. Being an engineer/physiscist, I do believe in the law of conservation of energy, so it's only natural to apply this rule to the spiritual world, i.e. everything that's ever existed got its energy from somewhere and left its own mark on those energies, releasing them in a new form when it ceased to exist materially. =) ]

New "birth date" and names:

Birth Path: Shows the opportunities present from birth that a person can use to express themselves. Often looked at as the vibration that describes the attributes of the type of career a person can successfully undertake. It is the road or path that is set and unchangeable for the person to take and complements the wisdom and experience from the total birth name.

I wasn't sure which date to use, the day I'd first gone to see a counsellor and took my first step towards being "my new self", or perhaps the day I finally get the green light from the psychiatrist for my T prescription, or even the day I receive my first dose of T. I suppose that it's going to be a future date, I could manipulate things and choose an auspicious day to do it.

First name: Represents the key to the character. It is the personal and physical side to how you perceive and carry yourself.

Nicolas

28 Keywords: Leader and Organiser (As subconscious knowledge and spiritual wisdom): A born leader with great organising abilities. Abundantly self-confident; must guard against exaggeration and extravagance. 1 Keywords: Independant, Original, Pioneer and Leader (How the vibration is experienced or actually lived out): A self-reliant person with strong leadership qualities. An original thinker who appears strong-minded; an ideas person.

Middle names: Represent the inner secret self and shows as emotions. It is part of the character that sets the tone for how one reacts to situations.

Aleksander

45 Keywords: Dedicated and Benevolent (As subconscious knowledge and spiritual wisdom): A person who is completely unique and uncompromising. They let nothing get in the way once they are convinced of something. 9 Keywords: Compassion, Wise, Humanitarian and Completion (How the vibration is experienced or actually lived out): A person with high ideals who feels for others and responds in considerate compassionate ways. Seem wiser than their years. Compelled to complete projects.

Lucius

22 Keywords: Builder, Balance and Strength (As subconscious knowledge and spiritual wisdom): A master vibration that gives this person a strong desire to make or build, not only materially but ideally. Has determined strength to follow through with projects. Recognition is often given, due to their success. 4 Keywords: Organised, Practical, Hard Worker and Disciplined (How the vibration is experienced or actually lived out): A serious and structured person. Approaches life in a practical way; often thought of as down-to-earth.

Aleksander Lucius

67 Keywords: Realist and Logical (As subconscious knowledge and spiritual wisdom): These people are aware of their capabilities and know how to juggle responsibility with self-needs. Normally operate from a logical point of view. 4 Keywords: Organised, Practical, Hard Worker and Disciplined (How the vibration is experienced or actually lived out): A serious and structured person. Approaches life in a practical way; often thought of as down-to-earth.

Last name: Represents the contemplative self. It is how you seize life and use your intellect to navigate your way through life, and drives your thinking process.

Mariusz

35 Keywords: Ambitious and Resourceful (As subconscious knowledge and spiritual wisdom): This person sees possibilities for success in almost everything. Has a natural ability to use contacts for linking up and making things happen. 8 Keywords: Power & Success, Ambition, Authority and Give & Receive (How the vibration is experienced or actually lived out): This person can be extremely competitive witha desire to have power and to succeed. The key is giving and receiving in balanced measure.

Full name: The true vibrational energies that were brought into this life.

Nicolas Aleksander Lucius Mariusz

130 -> 13 Keywords: Transformer and Disciplined (As subconscious knowledge and spiritual wisdom): A karmic vibration that requires the person to be orderly and disciplined. Often such a person is either a workaholic or extremely lazy until they learn to transform and balance in a creative way. 4 Keywords: Organised, Practical, Hard Worker and Disciplined (How the vibration is experienced or actually lived out): A serious and structured person. Approaches life in a practical way; often thought of as down-to-earth.

Vowels: Reveal the inner disposition or individualism. This can be likened to the inner motor that drives and compels a person to be an individual, separate and different.

56 Keywords: Ambassador and Judge A person with good intuition and insight who can assist others to their right path or decision. Can see both sides of a situation, which makes an excellent judge.

Consonants: Reveal the personality. This can be likened to a mask, not necessarily a true picture of the character; however, it is how people describe you as this is what you show to others.

74 Keywords: Virtuous and Analytical A candid person, often lacking in tact. Can be extremely analytical; often over-critical. Has a magnetic attraction -- people either love or dislike this person. Honours are often bestowed on them.

Pathway: The map we wish we were born with. Often not realised until a person is more mature (approx. 45 to 58 years old).

Also depends on the "birthdate", so I guess it'll have to wait.

Missing numbers: Indicate the particular energies that need to be worked on and/or overcome to be more balanced.

6 Keywords: Responsible, Honest, Love and Home & Family A person who is honest and trustworthy. Has a tendency to take on responsibility without thinking of the consequences. 7 Keywords: Thinker, Refined, Perfectionist and Quiet (How the vibration is experienced or actually lived out): An observant person who enjoys contemplative pursuits. Often thought of as dignified and reserved. Looks for perfection in all situations and people.

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